Growth.

In the past year, I’ve had the joy of growing closer to God and Jesus.

Through our church, through worship with my fellow church members, through reading His word, I have grown in indescribable ways.

My mind, though it betrays at times to things of this world, has never been so hopeful and free.

When you realize that you are a child of God, sent to be a steward, delivered from evil and sin, were made flawlessly in His image, were washed clean by the blood of our Christ who died for you on the Cross, you realize that your enemies cannot hurt you.

I remember being a rebellious teenager who thought that she could take matters into her own hands. I didn’t believe in God – at least I told myself I didn’t. I lost all hope and faith. I didn’t want to be in this world anymore, but I was too afraid not to be in it as well. I cursed the Heavens and I took out my anger on anyone and anything. I was miserable and felt alone, even when I was surrounded by friends.

I went on like this for quite a while. I didn’t know what to do. Then a moment came. You could say it was somewhat supernatural, something that would be scoffed at and said to be coincidence. But it was my turning point.

I was standing in my shower, crying. I had had a terrible day, one that seemed never to end. I felt worthless and hopeless and all I could do was stand under the hot water and cry. I called out, through my tears, I asked God for help. Mind you, this was unusual for me at that point in my life. I asked God to help me with these difficult times and to make it through. Suddenly, the lights in my bathroom shut off. A couple of seconds, maybe 4-5, passed, and they switched back on.

I was in shock and quickly finished my shower, wrapped myself in a towel and ran down to my parents. I immediately asked them (they were watching TV in the living room) if the power had gone out for a couple of seconds, to which they answered no. I was shaken. I was afraid, I will admit.

You see, the power in their house either goes out all together or doesn’t. There is no way the second floor of the house would lose power and the floor beneath it wouldn’t. From that moment out, I made a conscious decision that that occurrence could not have been coincidental. It couldn’t have been!

Now, did my life change overnight and did I hear the voice of God himself? Not at all. God is not a magical wizard, He does not grant wishes like Merlin or Genie. Instead, He gave me grace and strength and courage to deal with what I was going through. He gave me a sound mind and faithful heart. He gave me a purpose and never ever left my side, especially in my most difficult times.

God uses the broken and the sinners to do incredible things. Since the moment I detailed above, I have believed in the power and presence of God and his Son, Jesus Christ. Now, I have been growing in my faith and am joyous to say that my husband is joining me in that journey.

Skeptics will scoff and laugh, they will taunt and ridicule because that is the only way they can feel self-worth. By hating someone for being a believer and looking toward the world for happiness. Enemies will try to pull you away from the grace of God and His only Son because they are afraid. Yet, one that is saved cannot be thwarted while God is with them.

God is good all the time. He has made us all perfect in His image and loves us all exactly as we are. I am so happy to be part of a church who teaches to Pursue Life in Christ, for it is the most important thing.

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Update

I haven’t posted in quite some time. There’s a reason – I’m exhausted. All the time. I hardly get free time to myself and when I do, I end up dozing on my couch in front of the television until bedtime. How exciting!

A lot has happened since the last time I wrote a single thing! Let’s have an update, shall we?

My husband and I bought our first house: in fact we closed on it eight years to the day that we started dating – November 17th. It’s a beautiful 5 bedroom, 1.5 bathroom row home. Our neighbors are all very nice and quiet, which is a plus. Our dogs and cat are having a blast, and we are very excited and happy.

Thanksgiving was spent at my new house 🤗, I cooked all the fixings and it was a good time.

My husband got baptized on November 26th (a day after my birthday). I surprised him by having my parents, his mom, sister, our niece and nephew, our best friends from North Carolina, and several other friends show up for his big day. It was a wonderful celebration of his love and acceptance of Jesus and we both couldn’t be more grateful or blessed.

December was a whirlwind of getting ready for Christmas – and I cannot believe Christmas is over! We went to Christmas Eve service at our church (Calvary Church in Lancaster) and I have to say – it was delightful. If you’ve never been to our church, it’s one of those that spreads the message in a modern way, using Christian music from the radio, video taping messages so people who cannot attend can watch them at home, etc. So, they did a recap of the 2017 year at Calvary – and my hubby was featured getting baptized! It was a surprise and honor. Our pastor was so happy and several members of staff came up to Ian afterward and told him how happy they are with him. It was wonderful.

So everything has been hectic, joyous, and very exhausting these past couple of months. We have accomplished so many things this year and we are proud of ourselves!

We are truly Blessed and pray that 2018 will bring us and our family and friends many more blessings!

Happy New Year!!

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Family

In light of a very recent tragedy that occurred in our family, I want to say something. 

Family is the most important bond you can ever have. It out measures every single solitary relationship you may ever have with a friend.

Family is the only thing that will stick with you when times get rough, when you’re down on your luck, when tragedy strikes. No family is perfect just as no person is perfect. My family is no exception to that rule. We are all a bunch of messed up people that love each other. True, sometimes fights occur, you feel isolated by one person or another, things happen. In the end though, family, true family will always be there. Always with a listening ear, a warm hug, a happy smile, a good laugh. 

I hope everyone appreciates the family they have in their lives – whether it be your own, your spouses, combined. 

Be Thankful. 


Earlier today I was thinking about the people I work with. I don’t mean my coworkers. I mean my patients. I have a good amount of younger patients whose situations are more than upsetting. I have a 30-year-old patient who is blind, cannot move on her own, is non-verbal, has to have tube feedings for nutrition, a Foley catheter to urinate, a tracheostomy to breathe, and is completely incontinent. I have a 31-year-old patient who has gastroparesis and has lost over 200 pounds in the last 6 years because of it. She now has a feeding tube and an emptying tube in her stomach so that she can receive the nutrients she needs and then empty the leftover contents of her stomach into a drainage bag. I have several patients with cancer. Several have been in terrible car accidents. I look at all these people and give thanks that I am able to do what I do everyday. Some days I feel worst than others; more pain, more fatigued, more unhappy. None of those days have been as bad as the ones people I’ve helped and am helping have been going through and have yet to face. I pray daily that I’ll never end up the way my patients have, but that’s never a certainty. Some days it’s harder than others, my moods fluctuate, my body decides not to cooperate, I hate myself one day and love myself the next. I try to be grateful for everything I have because I’m aware that in a moment it could all disappear. Too many of us believe that we can wait to say sorry, to talk to that person you’ve had a fight with later, to see that family member at the next event. Unfortunately, it’s not necessarily plausible to think that way. What if you wake up one day and find that the person you’ve been having a petty fight with is gone and you never got to spend a last happy moment with them? What if that person is fighting a physical or mental illness that nobody knows about? How would you feel? What would you do? Regret is one of the worst feelings in the world. Is a ridiculous fight worth it? Worth the pain, the rage, the time and effort? I don’t believe so. Say I love you. Say thank you. Say I forgive you. Say I’m sorry. Love each other. Be thankful. Be grateful. Be humble.